Mengenal sahabat-sahabat perjalanan.. -Sang jiwa-jiwa petualang-

Pernahkah kita mendengar kata-kata bijak dari orangtua kita yang mengatakan
"pilihlah temanmu"...

Pernahkah kita kemudian duduk terdiam menyadari bahwa kita terseret arus "salah pergaulan"...

"Salah pergaulan"???... (hmmm... bisa ya?)
Pada saat kita berkesimpulan bahwa kita "salah gaul"...
Apa yang sebenarnya terjadi disana?

Apakah definisi salah gaul hanya sekedar mentok di arena "jadi bandel"?
(atau lebih tepatnya secara sosial diketokan palu keputusan bahwa kita bandel ;p)

"bandel" karena banyak minum (kembung donk ;p), banyak merokok, banyak mengganja, mungkin sex bebas, dan perilaku "menyimpang" (pake tanda petik ya) lainnya yang mungkin saya tidak pakar untuk jabarkan :D
(I really wish I knew those kind of things, believe it or not... tapi mungkin rencana Tuhan berbeda ;p)

Atau mungkin arena yang sedikit lebih "ringan".. jadi kebanyakan main, nongkrong2 berjam-jam sekian hari dalam seminggu di mall (anak mall bisa ngamuk nih hehe), kebanyakan belanja, pulang malem (or dini hari), lupa daratan dan lautan lah pokoknya mah... (yang di emphasize yang terakhir ya :) )


Apakah itu artinya salah gaul?...

Pada saat kita duduk terdiam dan menyadari...
Bukankah kesimpulan yang dicapai selalu "kok gw jadi begini ya"..

Bukankah saat itu,, hanya kehampaan,, dan kekosongan yang melingkupi keseluruhan rongga hati?
Ada sinyalir kiriman semesta yang berbisik (atau kadang menghentak-hentak) di keseluruhan diri kita...
Ia berkata.. ADA YANG SALAH...


Namun ternyata sinyalir itu pun tak luput bersinggah...
Walaupun kita membatasi pergaulan kita dengan so-called anak "baik-baik"...
Walaupun kita nurut semua petuah dan menjalani semua perintah...

Jadi apa yang terjadi disana?...

Apa misteri yang menghadiahkan segumulan kelam kehampaan di dalam diri ini?

Bukankah pada saat itu.. kita merasa bahwa...

kita kehilangan diri...

atau mungkin.... jauh dari diri...

Sungguh bagaimana mungkin?

Memang diri ini milik siapa sampai hilang dan menjauh?

Namun memang ia terasa menghilang... Ia seperti menjauh...

Ada yang sirna.. hingga hampa terasa..

Kekeliruan seringkali terjadi dalam versi "bandel extreme"...

Saat kekosongan terjadi... kesimpulan kadang diambil dari ketokan palu sosial bahwa memang semua hal itu tidak "baik"...jadi yang mesti disalahkan adalah semua hal "tidak baik" itu, dan teman-teman yang berkecimpung di dalamnya... Benarkah mereka biang keladi nya??

Ini bukanlah bentuk support terhadap hal-hal tersebut,, bukan pula bentuk ketidaksetujuan...
Saya berada di luar ranah itu...

Ini sekedar usaha melihat lebih jelas dan menganalisa dengan lebih sadar
(orang bilang yang penting niatnya kan :D)

Namun jika kemudian ternyata kita dihadapkan dengan kekosongan yang sama...
Tapi hal mencolok di depan mata sungguh tidak ada untuk ditunjuk dan dihujat sebagai biang keladi
Jika sepertinya seluruh lingkungan, teman-teman, dan bahan mainan bukanlah mereka yang masuk kalangan "larangan sosial"

Apa dan siapa yang mesti disalahkan?
Apa dan siapa yang harus di-kambing hitam kan?

Mungkinkah inti permasalahan terletak pada kenyataan bahwa lingkungan membuat kita berhenti jadi pejuang?
Atau "tidur" kelamaan?

Pejuang kehidupan..
Mereka yang terlahir dengan jiwa pemberani..
Berani.. mempertanyakan siapa diri ini..
Berani mencari tahu Ia yang SEJATI..
Menganalisa ulang pakem sosial dunia..
Membedah semesta..
Meniti jalan suci ke dalam diri.. tersesat..terjatuh..tercaci..terhina..
Atau sekedar disebut gila oleh rumus dunia..

Namun tetap melangkah.. karena mereka tahu ini panggilan utama..

Mungkinkah juga karena semua benda atau manusia yang kita hujat dan kita hukum gantung itu sesungguhnya men-distract fokus kita... memperlambat perjuangan kita..
Karena akhirnya kita sibuk menata penampilan luar diri daripada meniti jalan ke dalam diri..

Lalu.. haruskah kita tutup hidup ini -kunci rapat-rapat, gembok berlapis-lapis- untuk menghindarinya?

Sungguh semesta ini indah adanya... Lepas dari semua penilaian baik-buruk dunia.. semua jiwa indah adanya.. Penitian jalan ke dalam diri seyogyanya membentuk kita menjadi manusia penuh welas asih..

Pertumbuhan jiwa adalah tanggung jawab diri kita masing-masing..

Jadi janganlah kita kambing hitamkan sembarang hal dan manusia hanya karena kita takut memikul tanggung jawab itu..

Simply... Sadarlah dalam menjalani hidup ini...

Sadarilah mana jiwa-jiwa indah yang membantu pertumbuhan jiwa kita, dan mana yang menghambat..

Jangan lingkupi diri dengan judgement terhadap mereka yang memperlambat proses kita..

Itulah mereka adanya... Disanalah tingkat evolusi mereka.. itulah peranan mereka dalam hidup kita.. dan sungguh mereka pun indah adanya..

Namun dekatkan diri dan hati pada sang pejuang sejati, pada mereka sahabat hati..

Pada Ia yang membantu jatuh cinta berkali-kali..

Pada Ia yang membuat rasa syukur memenuhi hati..

Pada Ia yang melahirkan diri kembali membumi..

Kenali lah,, sungguh mereka memiliki banyak wajah

-Pria, wanita, tua, muda, anak-anak, waria, remaja, hitam, putih, oranye, etc-

Hadir dengan beribu label

-Kekasih, ibunda, kakek, embah, teman duduk sebangku, suami, tukang pulung, supir taxi, celebrities, total stranger, etc-

Ya kenalilah.. dan dekatilah... Duduk di sampingnya..

Jangan buru-buru kabur...

Karena seringkali mereka bagaikan tukang pijit handal yang pijitannya sakitttt minta ampuuuunn namun selalu berhasil membuat penat badan hilang semua,, that we will want to go back for more...

Luangkan waktu lebih banyak dengan mereka..

Mereka adalah jiwa-jiwa menyejukan yang memperingan langkah kita di dunia..

So choose your friend.. or choose with whom you spend your time and heart the most..

And simply (yes not simple really)... Be conscious in living life...

Sehingga kita bisa menikmati - sekedar meng-obeservasi atau mencicipi- berbagai warna-warni hidup yang disuguhkan berbagai jiwa dan keseluruhan semesta dalam kesadaran penuh..

Sehingga kita bisa jatuh cinta berkali-kali hingga tak ingin mati :)

Note

Tulisan ini saya persembahkan untuk semua pejuang-pejuang sejati yang memenuhi hidup saya dengan cinta dan kasih.. Yang siap membangunkan saya saat saya mulai tertidur lelap.. Yang mengajarkan saya makna hidup dan rahasia semesta.. You all know who you are.. Terima kasih untuk kehadirannya.. Namaste..

Tulisan ini pun saya persembahkan kepada jiwa-jiwa petualang di luar sana yang baru saya sadari keberadaannya melalui anak pinak kecanggihan teknologi bernama blog.. sungguh saya tidak mengenal Anda secara pribadi.. namun melalui beberapa coretan hati Anda.. saya tahu pasti.. saya tidak sendiri :) saya punya teman-teman pejuang baru.. Namaste..

Love is all there is...

...Freedom is the only thing that can exist in the space of Love...
(Conversation with God - The uncommon dialogue)


Talking about Love in its universality meanings...
Then freedom comes as the centre of the discussion...

One really nice phrase I read in one good book says that ‘freedom is the only thing that can exist in the space of Love’…

Is it really?

After some time contemplating the statement… It is really…

This is how I see it…


Human soul and change

Human, as Life itself, changing all the time..
Nothing is ever the same... What consistent is the inconsistency itself...

As hard as we try to be the same, or force things to keep the same, we won't be able to resist the change happening with everything surround us as well as the change happening within us...

It took me a while to understand this thing...

Years back, when I was so young, there were moments I remember when friends will push us further from their circle whenever they feel that we are changing... Into someone they don't know.. When 'change' is something to be avoided... no matter how good or bad the change itself... It is avoided simply because it presents something new,, something unfamiliar,, yet creates insecurity... A lot of times in Life, status quo chosen as the best solution only because the security and familiarity it gives... Yet by choosing so, we fail to see the beauty or at least knowing the beauty of the new things...

Back to ourselves as a human, as a soul, we keep on changing... conscious or unconsciously... There is one thing I have been thinking for some time, that we can measure our growth as a soul by how often people succeed to define us as a person... The moment we are being understood and easily defined is the sign that we stop to grow, or more precisely resting a bit too long in one stage of Life...

This is taken from the introduction chapter of The Madman by Kahlil Gibran:
....And I have found both freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us...

Freedom and space to grow

Then as human keeps on changing... How can we keep on loving people we love when they constantly change? What if the side that I love dissapear and change into another side that I don't know? And even before I get acquainted with the new side, it starts to tranform into some other new side that I have no idea on what it will become...

Love then is all about giving freedom and space to people we love to be who they really are... To see them as one whole package...

The easiest example is when we talk about Love between couple.. A lot of times the theme of fights or arguments are about differences and the 'bad' side of our couple.. The analogy that perfectly represent this situation is color...

When we say that we love our couple is the same way when I say that I love grey color!... Yet the statement of 'I love my couple' will mostly follows by but....... I don't like it when He/She is bla bla bla... and also when He/She is being bla bla bla... It will be like saying I love grey color but I don't like black color... Yet grey is a combination of white and black.. Both are what consist grey color... They are completing one another into the lovely grey color that we love...

A lot people will find it hard to accept this... Yes,, because the framework is still black and white... Good and bad... Let's try another color that might help us understand this more clearly.. Say that I love Orange color and loving red color and yellow as two main primary colors that consist orange... As red is as beautiful as the yellow and both creates the color I love the most - Orange-...

So it is all about seeing people we love for who they really are, as nothing is bad, because one completes the other to creates the person for whom He/She really is...

And most importantly is about giving space for them to grow... Not stopping them by making judgements nor definition of who they are... But loving them as a constantly growing soul... And by time we will always find new amazement in the person we love... It's experiencing new Love all the way...

It's about being fair and respectful

What makes the effort sometimes hard is when our surroundings do not have the same way of thinking as we are...

Along the way people creates a lot of bias and see us from one single particular point of view that sometimes does not represent even one single percent of who we really are...

Bias as well comes by judgement and definition that born from comparison... Comparing us in the measurement of other people... Yet every single soul is unique, nothing is the same... Nothing in this universe is duplication as God is the almighty Creator... God creates not duplicate nor replicate...

Yet we can not control other people... We can only be responsible for who we are... Being conscious includes conscious about what things surround us might make us feel and take control over it before it takes control over us..

Wrong thought, perspective, and bias about us shall not make us create the same things to the other person... As by doing so we are not being fair because we, as they are, just see them for one single small side that might not at all represent who they really are..

It is how we try to be respectful even when those respect does not returning back to us... Yet Life is not a trade centre where profit or loss is what matters...

I believe when we succeed to understand and implement these.. That will be the moment when the statement of 'I love you' becomes the real truth :)

So for those blocking their heart for me before even knowing me for who I really am, I am trying as hard as I can to be fair to you… To see you for the real you and to know you for the real you … Praying you’ll be able to do the same… Yet if you fail to do so… No worries… I’ll love you for you…

Be diligent.. In the school of life

What life for you?
How do you see life?

How do you interpret things happening in life

The question keeps on rolling... People still trying to reveil the mistery of life...

Trying to unveil the beauty and dark side of life wishing to crack the big puzzle..

The more I think about it, the more I see it...

Brighter sometimes.. Darker sometimes..

I don't care anymore..

Here I am.. Living my life..

For me, Life is simply a sophisticated school. Yes, School of Life...

There's only one curricullum for everybody..

Consisting lessons about kindness, hatred, anger, respect, tolerance, love, jealousy, envy, peace, forgiveness, and all the things that you will find in any holly bible from any religion..

But what's so sophisticated about this school is that the lessons are delivered in different kind of ways; different kind of methods for each student..

It is so sophisticated that it always adjust itself depending on the needs of each soul..

That's why each of us has different story of life..

Sometimes the lesson comes in a hard package

Lesson of love in a form of war..

Or in the death of our beloved ones..

Sometimes it comes in a simple and nice package
Lesson of forgiveness in a form a warm hug from the person we hurt..

A lot of times we wonder, why we should experience things that we experience in our life...

A lot of times we dissatisfied with it; we curse it..

Just because it seems too hard to walk through,, and too hard to be understood..

The truth is.. we just refuse to open our eyes.. we refuse to be responsive..

Yes, responsive..

In the school of life, no one gonna hit us if we don't understand the lesson.

It's all depends on whether we want to understand or not..

We decide to be responsive student or not; to be diligent student or not..

A lot of people choose not to... Because the road is tough.. Yes it is..

It is exhausting my dear friend, to be concious all the time..

But it's a life decision..

Whether we want to waste one period of life in stupidity or be rich from it..

Be a diligent student.. In the school of life..

Love,

Kiki

Waiting for the call...

Everyday,,, every time,,, I always have this strong believe that I am meant to do something big,,, something beyond “me”,,, taking the step out of the ordinary,,, Seeing life in a bigger perspective, in a complete different angle…

Why? I don’t know… perhaps because I’m surrounded by extra ordinary people in my life,,, people who seeks the secret of life,,, the secret of universe,,, trying to answer the mystery of what’s beyond common knowledge.

I have once read a book (it’s either one of these book “the Celestine prophecy” , “the 10th insight”, and or “the shambala” à they are continuation of each other) they are amazing books really.
Well one part of the book says that there are reasons why we are born in the family we are now. We actually choose them because we wish to develop into someone we are desired to be. With all the family background, the learning, the conflict, all.

My mom is one of the most “aware” and “awake” person in life that I have ever met. I have grown watching, learning, discussing great things with her. She has a very high curiosity about life, and universe. She’s interested in anything about life. Whether you want to discuss it from spiritual side, from science side, from religion side, from anything. She collects books that sometimes you just don’t understand what it’s all about. She just never stops.

So basically she gives me all the influence of being curious. Curious of trying to find “me” in the middle of the universe. The thing is I don’t know if I’m in the right path now. Am I giving enough effort? Am I walking to the right way? Am I starting what I really should start? Or did I missed the call?

Something strong has grown in me,, really,, because people like my Mom, keeps showing their faces in my life. More and more. Each people have different ways to answer their questions, and a total different “faces” with my mom. But basically they are all the same. People who fight to keep their awareness up high. And keeps on awake. Just stay awake. Never fall a sleep. Not again.